Excited!!!

I had a GREAT day.  Not much went on but my attitude was very good.  I struggle so much with my attitude but every time I start to get upset or down I say "Jesus" over and over.  I learned that in my small group Bible study last week.  The devil cannot enter where Jesus lives (Thanks Angela).  I have to admit it WORKED!!!!  These past few days have been rough because Ben has been really sick.  All you ladies know how men are when they are sick,  WIMPY!!!  I know he has felt bad but I seem to recall I cooked supper the day after I came home from transplant.  I always tell him "Get up and move around. You will feel tons better."  He does no t appreciate that too well.  OH DARN!!!  I am beginning to listen to God about my direction in life I need to take.  So many things have played over and over in my head since Sunday morning worship.  I cannot quite pinpoint exactly the "adventure" he wants me to start on but I am sure as I learn to open my heart more to Him, I will be able to hear his calling.  I want to be a strong, inspirational woman.  I want to stand for what I believe in and who I am.  I want Jesus' light to shine through me.  I am starting a new small groups Bible study on Sunday night.  It is called "Share Jesus Without Fear."  I pray this study truly, deeply speaks to my heart and shows me how to witness the way Jesus commands us to do in the world.  I want the devil to say in the mornings when my feet hit the ground "Oh no, Niki is up.  She is on a mission for God today so I better take a "bunch" of steps back."  I also want more importantly for God to say "Niki is up.  Let's see what kind of Godly impact she will make on someone today."  I feel on fire for God but unsure of how to let the flame out into the world.  I will continue to pray for my "adventure" to be shown to me.  I will be patient and understanding.  God's "adventure" my not be the "adventure" I have in mind.  I pray for his will to be done.  Everyone have a blessed night.  Just a side note.....One more training left for my 5K run.  Say a quick prayer for me Friday night or Saturday morning(early-we have to be there at 6:30-YIKES!).